Random Thoughts

UGG!

I can't believe that I only have a couple more days of my leave left. Well, James would love it if I could stay home another week. I'm not sure if its just for the pleasure of my company or if he just want the help with the baby. ;) I have the feeling that he will have it a little rough at first because Ethan loves to be held.

Actually this entire year has gone by pretty fast. My 31st birthday will here in 11 days. I'm getting to be old! Well, not really but isn't that what most people think when they are younger? I don't really feel any older than I did when I was 21 (except for being a lot more outta shape!). Maybe its just me, but after I hit 25 time has flown by. Its crazy that Lucas will be 9 this year. I remember bring him home from the hospital like it was yesterday.

Alright....enough from me tonight! I'm sure I'll have more things to say this week though. :)

This is a topic that I've thought a lot about lately. I think mostly because I never seem to have the time to contact my friends on a regular basis so it makes me feel like a bad friend. Does anyone else struggle with this? There are people that I still consider a friend even if I haven't spoken to them in years. Its just hard when you change jobs or move because you lose touch.

I'm a big "out of sight, out of mind" type person. That has become more noticible in the past 6 weeks that I've been home on maternity leave. It almost feels like I've lost myself in my family. I mean, I do email or call my friends but not on a regular basis like I normally would. This could have to do with the new baby but I'm not sure if I can say that is the entire reason.

So why am I talking about this? Well, I found out today that an old friend of mine died suddenly yesterday. I hadn't talked to him in years but that didn't make him any less my friend. He was a great funny guy and he will be missed by all that knew him. You just never expect that call telling you that a friend has passed away.

Maybe I'm thinking about this too much but its just weird how life is. I actually started this post several days ago but hadn't gotten around to finishing it until today. Then this happens with Steve and kinda relates to this. Hopefully it won't take another death or problem to make me think about this issue again. :'(