Random Thoughts

Lately I've been thinking that I should get a new job.  Not that I don't like the one I have or anything.  My job right now is pretty good actually.  I'm in "the zone" so to speak as far as my comfort level in what I do.  It's just getting to be to be a burden trying to balance my home life and work life.  I'll try to explain what I mean.

First off....I drive quite a bit to my job.  Its about 27 miles each way and driving on I-4 in Orlando pretty much blows.  It has gotten a little bit better now that some of the projects downtown are finishing up but there are still a ton of people on the road everyday.  I'm still nursing my youngest so I need to get up early enough to feed him, take a shower and get ready and then head out.  Oh....something I didn't mention.  I have to leave work by 3 each day to meet my hubby at his job since he starts at 4.  While its nice to be able to have a job where they can accommodate my hours it also means I need to wake up at 4:30 every morning to make sure I have enough time to do what I need to do before I leave at 6.  :(  We have been able to work from home on and off for the past 6 months or so but even that can have its downside.  My baby knows I'm home so he wants me to pay attention to him.  That can make it very hard to work and stay focused on what it is I'm doing. 

I need to find something that is closer to where I live.  This idea has been rolling around in my head for a long time so I think its time I brushed off and updated my resume and get myself out there.  I don't make bad money but I hope I could find something that pays more than what I make now.  But I also have to be realistic.  Time are rough and this economy isn't that hot, especially down here.  So even if I start looking soon, I might not be able to find something that would be a good fit for me until after the new year anyway.

I don't know....that's just kind of where I am right now.  I also need to find a way to get more time in with my family.  My girlfriend and I were talking about this subject the other day.  Does more money really matter if you are lacking quality time with your family?  I don't think it is.  There are plenty of things I need to work on and that should probably be a main focus for me and us as a family.  I don't want to tell my kids all the time that I can't do something because I'm working or I'm tired and grumpy because I haven't had enough sleep.

Hmm....I have a lot to think about over the weekend, that's for sure!  :)

James is on vacation this weekend with his folks visiting family in Illinois and Wisconsin.  We haven't been able to visit his family as much as we would like, even when we were closer and lived in Indy so he likes to go when he can.  I think he really went to see how his Grandma is doing.  The last time I saw her was around Christmastime and her health had declined sharply.  God love her, she has been through a lot in her life.  She has outlived 2 husbands and more recently has battled breast cancer.  She also has other health issue like dementia and breathing problems which have become more pronounced in the last year or so.  She is a Florida snowbird and usually stays with James' Aunt Sue during the warmer months in Wisconsin and then comes back to Florida around Labor Day and splits her time between my in-laws and James' other aunt outside of Tampa.  James saw her today and he's pretty sure that she won't be coming back down this year and he isn't sure that she will be with us after the new year. 

I feel so bad for him because he is so attached to his family.  Or his immediate family I should say.  When his Uncle George passed away 4 years ago, he was devastated.  He still doesn't like to talk about it.  He went to the cemetery today visit his gravestone and that is when he said that he doesn't think she'll be here very much longer.  He went to visit her in the nursing home she is in and was very bothered by it.  I guess at this point, its too hard to deal with her care so that is the decision the sisters made.  I wish I could be with him up there but it just wasn't possible with the kids going back to school this week.

So I told him that all we can do is pray for her and her health and that she doesn't suffer while she is here on earth.  He said that she has gotten so frail in the past several months, he could probably pick her up with one arm.  He told me he doesn't want to take any pictures of her like that but I told him that he should to have them.

While its a sad situation, I can only hope that what ever pain and discomfort she is feeling is brief and fleeting.  She is a woman of faith so I'm sure she will be in a better place when her time comes.

I am so excited that the football season is only a month away.  Pretty soon I'll be able to watch the pre-season games and that will help get me back into the swing of things for the the fall.  Or what we have of the fall down in Florida.

Being from Indy, I am of course a huge Colts fan.  I'm a little worried about the surgery that Peyton recently had on his knee but if he has to miss some games while he is recovering, I'm sure we'll be okay.  While winning a lot of games is nice, its being able to go to the Big Dance which concerns me more.

I'm a little sad by what is happening in Green Bay with Favre.  I always liked him and was sad to see him go when he retired but he played for a long time so I thought that was probably his best course of action.  Now with all of this drama that's going on, I wonder if he should have kept quiet about retiring until he was for sure ready to hang up the cleats.  I'm not sure how I would feel about him playing for another team.  And and I'm sure the Packer fans would freak out if he did decide to do that.  I think his best bet is to take the deal the Packers are offering him of being paid NOT to play so he'll always be remembered as a Packer.

Oh...I also wonder how Eli Manning will do this year after ending his season on such a high.  Obviously it proves to the Giants fans that you can have a crappy start to the season but still end up with the Lombardi trophy.  I'll be keeping my eye on them!  :)

I don't think I can say this enough.  I'm glad the football season is starting soon!  Yeah!