Random Thoughts

Wow. I'm not sure what else to say after watching this video. How can anyone refuse to give care to a living breathing baby? How can a DOCTOR strangle a baby that had been born alive? How can Obama stand behind his decision not to give care to these precious infants? I'm kinda sick to my stomach right now. I'm sorry, I could care less about the health of the mother once that baby has parted with her body. If there is even a slim change that baby could be saved after an attempted abortion that should take precedent over anything else. May God forgive these men and women who participate in this. I thought that was part of the Hippocratic Oath all doctors have to profess is "Do No Harm". Just because a fetus (or infant once its outside of his mothers body) can't tell anyone "this hurts or it burns" that doesn't mean it can't feel just like you and me. Babies can hear and feel touch inside the womb, ask anyone that been pregnant before.

I'll admit it. Up until recently I've been a wimp as far as looking at pictures or watching videos like this because I was too afraid of what I would see. Well, it confirmed all of the horrible ideas I had running through my mind. I've been incredibly blessed to have my children. I don't understand why these women don't feel the same way about someone that is part of them. Even if there are horrible circumstances behind the pregnancy, that isn't the child's fault. There are so many women who would love to be able to carry a child of their own but can't and to see this....it just makes me wonder why these partial birth/late term abortions are still being allowed.

I would like to think that I don't have this problem but I know I'm guilty of it.  As I sit hear listening to my favorite Nickel Creek cd, I'm reminded of it.  A couple of years ago my husband wanted to give me a surprise because he knew I really liked them.  He does too but not as much as me.  Anyway, he camped out at House of Blues until their show was over so he could get one of their cd's signed for me.  I remember when he gave it to me he was so excited and I know I thanked him but looking back now, maybe I didn't appreciate it as much as I should have.  He wasted a couple of hours just hanging out (he didn't get tickets in time) until he got a chance to get their autograph.  Actually he did that another time as well with Norah Jones.  He is a little more into the whole autograph thing than me.  He'll put them in shadow boxes with the cd booklet and anything he has like a ticket stub or something that he's bought from the group.  I'm getting off the subject right?  Right.

So....I guess I'm posting this as a way to remind myself that sometimes thanking someone for something they have done for you isn't enough.  You should truly appreciate their actions and hopefully that will across to that person.  As my friends like to say, Monica you're not cold but....you aren't emotional or touchy feely either.  Well maybe not but that doesn't mean that I can't try and change my ways at the ripe old age of 31!  :)

Well....its not like we are going to go out and live it up today.  Times are rough and having 4 young children, its usually not easy to find a babysitter!  :)  I just want to reflect on the time we've spent together which is 10 years total.  10 years.  That is amazing to me!  If you asked me that when we were first dating if this is where I saw myself I would have said you were nuts!  Sure James was cute and all but I didn't know if we had what it took to stay together this long.  Sometimes I still don't but that is more of a idea in the back of my head when I am angry or annoyed at something more than anything.  I can't imagine my life without him now.  It has taken me a long time to admit this to myself but I truly and deeply love that man.  Why is that hard for me?  I'm too independent for my own good and that has always been a sore spot for my husband.  So much so that after all this time I still haven't changed my last name!  I just never thought that Monica Mills rolled off the tongue well but I think that I will change it within the next year or so.  I guess Monica Gamez-Mills wouldn't be too bad.  ;)

Marriage has changed me that's for sure.  It might not be obvious to anyone that has met me since I've been married but if you ask any of my old friends that knew me from before, I'm sure that they can agree.  I've always like to get my way but I'm much more open to compromise now.  That's what a good marriage is all about I think.  You can't be so intertwined that you can't tell one person from the other but you can't be so independent that bending a little isn't a option for you.  How boring would it be to with someone exactly like yourself 24/7?  On the other hand, who wants to fight and argue all the time?  Neither can be very fun. 

So I am going to take today to give thanks for all of the blessings I've had in my life so far, mainly finding a good man to share my life with and raise children together.  I've also made a pledge to myself to tell him more often that I love him since I've haven't always been good at that in the past.  Is my life perfect?  Far from it but my imperfect life will do me just fine! 

This is always the best time for me (I hate hot weather & crowds!) to visit the park.  That's what most people that have ever worked at Disney call any of the theme parks.  The particular park I visited last evening/night was Epcot and it was fun because I got to see some friends from out of town and also do the Food & Wine festival.  I usually try to go a couple of times while its going on so I'll probably be back soon.

So it was kinda funny to see my friends Sean and Haley, who don't have kids of their own, try to entertain mine until James could come and get them.  My children are very hyper and it was all they could do to help me keep track of them.  It was really busy last night (but the weather was beautiful!) so I was glad they could help me out.  James had to work but wanted me to enjoy some time with Haley since I only get to see her a couple times a year so he came when he was finished with his shift.

There were some interesting moments before he got there though....I was explaining to Haley that normally James would take off the night she's in town but he couldn't because of his "procedure" that was done on Monday and he had already taken his days off.  Then there goes my 8 year old blasting out "Oh you mean dad's vasectomy?".  I think we all about died right there!  It's not a secret or anything and if anyone knows Lucas you know that he is forever asking questions so we told him the truth of what happened.  I just didn't expect him to yell it out at a busy theme park!  James got a kick out of that when I told him about it.  :)

The food was tasty and so were the drinks we had.  I honestly don't like mojitos very much but the one I had in Puerto Rico was so good!  When I go back there, I will need to remember to hit that booth again.  Yep....that is on my list.

For those of you who haven't been to F&W, it's an event they have for about 6 weeks (it may be more this year) where the different lands in the World Showcase show off their country's delicacies along with a wine or alcoholic drink that best represent that culture.  They also have booths for countries that aren't normally there during the rest of the year like Poland, Greece, Spain or Ireland.  They have also been showcasing different states more recently.  This year it's Louisiana and let me tell the you, the crawfish etouffee was awesome!  :)

So I think I will go back on Tuesday and this time share it with James.  He is a foodie like I am and we always have fun trying new things.  Mmm...I can't wait to get some more chocolate creme brulee.  It's so creamy and good and you can't beat the bad attitude from the French IP kids when they hand you the plate.  Haha!  They can't help, its part of who they are. 

So my husband and I have have been talking a lot about the hot mess that has been going on in Orlando related to the whole Casey/Calyee Anthony case.

I'm glad she's been arrested!  I hope she stays in jail for the rest of her life.  If she doesn't know exactly what happened  to her daughter, she has a pretty good idea.  I also think that the grandmother knows something but doesn't want to admit that her daughter would be so callous and cold. 

I don't understand people.  Really I don't.  I mean, I have kids of my own and I don't understand how this chick could go over a month without knowing where in the hell her kid is!  And if the grandmother is anything like my mom (who lives out of state) she is calling everyday to see what is going on if she hasn't seen her grandchild.

What makes this woman think its okay to lead people on for months as evidence has been building up and stick to that lame ass story that some Hispanic woman took her and that's the last she has head of her girl?  Just about everything out of that woman's mouth has been a lie.  What's really sad is that she seems to do it so easily like she is really used to it. 

Well, that's my rant on this issue.  We will see how it plays out here in O-Town!