Random Thoughts

So I was out again tonight with my good friend Sean aka Small Coffey. To the people that don't know him, he's maybe 105 pounds on a good day and 5'6 so the moniker of Small Coffey fits him to a tee! :) We've been hanging out a lot since he's gone to days and our schedules are are now basically the same. I had forgotten how much I enjoyed his company since we weren't hanging out as much but its all coming back to me now....!

See my problem is that being married with 4 small children doesn't give me much time to myself. Just spending a couple of hours a week without my family is a good way to get rid of stress. Well, what stress I do have. I'm the type of person not to hold things in or to dwell on them too long because life is too short for all that so I don't stress out too often. But.....sometimes, you just need to chill with a friend over good food or maybe a good drink (don't tell James!) and let what stress you do have fly out the window.

We spent a fun night talking about my in-laws and whatever happened since the last time we saw each other. We've been friends so long that we can finish each other sentences, break out into song at the same time and know what the other person might be thinking. I think its great to have friends like that and I've had the pleasure of having several of them throughout my crazy life. Girls....you know who are! Jenni, Haley, Heather, Eva, Justine, Annie.....I have more but its late and I'm tired! :) But really.....I'm lucky to have solid friendships like that. You can never underestimate how much your friends effect you. If you are having a rough day, you know that you always have someone in your corner to talk to and hear you out. If I didn't have my friends, I'm sure I would be a more bitter and sour person.

So what's the point of this post? Dunno know....just wanted to say that I'm glad I have these people in my life that I trust and view as true friends. They are my sanity!

Okie dokie....its late and my tired behind should get to bed!

Do you have days when you just feel kinda old? It probably has a lot to do with the fact that I've been up since the break of dawn....actually earlier than that. My little man woke me up at 3:45am and I've been up ever since. I did have my fabulous white mocha from 'Bucks this morning (I don't even want to think how much fat & calories I consumed!) but even that didn't keep me awake. When I feel tired like I did most of the day today, it makes me feel older than 31. 31 isn't really old but I can certainly tell my body doesn't bounce back from lacking sleep like it used to.

I remember the days I would wait up early (for me anyway!) around 7 and go to work then hang out with my friends later. I could be up until 2 or 3 in the morning and still be good to go for the next work day. Now?!? Forget about it! I can't imagine but then again, I've had kids so maybe that's what is working against me the most. :)

Alright....I guess I should go to bed huh? Sorry....just let out a big yawn! :)

I seriously need to make more time for my family. It just seems so hard with James and I working opposite schedules (saves $$ in daycare though!) to get any real quality time together. Its not like I'm the most emotional or touchy feely type person but it does make me sad that we're not all together very often. The rare moments we are all at home at the same time, we are either helping the kids with their homework or one of us is trying to catch up on sleep.

That's why I think this summer vacation is important. Hopefully, we can get something worked out in the next couple of weeks. My mom doesn't think she can come down at the end of May like I had hoped so our Texas trip might be out. But....I was thinking maybe we can stay in state this year and take the kids down to the Keys. They love the beach (isn't it a shame I've never taken them to the beach in FL?) and I'm sure we can find lots of things for them to do. It will just be nice being able to relax and not worry about going to work or keeping up on the computer. I still haven't broken down and bought a laptop yet so we will be Internet free for over a week! Lucas is gonna have a cow because I swear he is addicted to it, which is a shame since he's only 8 years old!

Just another random post about me talking about my family. I hope that soon we will be on a better schedule. With Ethan just being a couple months old though, I'm not sure when that will be!

It's late, I should already be asleep! Buenas noches!

I finally got around to seeing that cute movie Juno. I swear I could put that Michael Cera kid aka Paulie Bleeker in my pocket. He's just adorable in a geeky kinda way. I'm gonna buy that movie when it comes out. I already bought the soundtrack. The songs are quirky but it works with the movie. Ellen Page did a great job as a smart ass kid. I've read some reviews about her character not being believable but I knew kids like that in HS. I love that song they do at the end of the movie Off key but its so sweet and had a realness about it. :)

That Kimya Dawson chick kinda reminds me of me. Her songs seem like they were written at random intervals of her life like my blog notes. No real rhyme or reason to them but they get her point across!

Alright, I guess that is it for tonight.

Isn't he cute? My little man is cute in his bunny ears. :)



I haven't blogged in month so I thought I would write a little update to what's been going on with me.

Well, I'm back to work. :( This is actually my 4th week back. Kinda sucks trying to juggle my home life with work but it has to be done until my husband makes enough dinero to keep my big behind home or we win the lottery or something. Since neither of those things will probably be happening in the near future, I'll be working.

The beginning part of last month was a bummer with my friend Steve's passing but it ended well. James and I both had our birthdays in March. Actually I have a ton of friends with March birthdays for some weird reason but I digress....James is the ripe old age of 36 and I'm now 31. I can't believe time has gone by so fast for the both of us. It seems just like yesterday that I met James at Disney and I turned 21 and it was finally legal for me to drink. That makes me recall my big night out at Jungle Jim's here in O-town. Doh! I'm really glad we sat outside and that there were bushes out there so I could yak. :P Gross I know but isn't that what being 21 is all about? After getting with James (which will be 10 years in August), I didn't do that anymore. He's not a big fan of alcohol but now he's a bartender. How funny is that?

Anywhoo....so what was I talking about again? Age? Yeah, I guess that's it. I was looking at my Myspace page today and checking out my cousins profiles. Man, that's so crazy! I can't believe their all grown up with families of their own. I still picture them as 7 or 10 year olds just doing kids stuff, not having kids. I haven't been able to see any of them in 9 years. The last time I went to see them in Texas, I was preggers with Lucas which was 1999.

So why am I talking about that? I decided that I will make a trip to good old Texas this year! I keep talking about it with James because I really want the kids to know my mothers side of the family. I want to go when the kids are done with school and we'll drive over there. Yes, the cost of gas is ridiculous but I was just checking out flights and that's almost twice the cost of renting a van and then we would still need to rent a van while we are there. As much as I hate to rent a van, I'm don't think our van will make it and I'm not ready to buy a new one yet. I think the kids will like the drive on I-10 and being able to see the Gulf Coast. If we can work it out, my momma will be coming with us so she can see my aunts. Hopefully I'll know more about everything in the next couple of weeks. Before you know it, June will be here!

I'll try and update this thing more often and post more pics of the kiddies. We got a new camera and maybe I'll start using it!

Later